And so, We kick the teens out of us.

I haven't been able to often update this place so is my diary. The last I updated it was actually last year. Well it must sulking in some corner of my room. I better go and try to find it. January is lazily slithering by. When I say 'lazily slithering', I mean, its been going by pretty fast but uneventful. Well, uneventfuly is a strong word but what else can I say when I do nothing but watch the Rachel Ray show, Martha Stewart show and Oprah every weekday at 10.30am. So that pretty much summarises what I do nowadays. I am also waiting for my application as a substitute teacher to be approved so I can at least have a decent piece of job. if that doesn't work out, I will scavenge for one, I have no other choice.

Last Saturday happened to be a very dark day. It marked the passing of my best friends father. To be honest, I am very bad at reacting to these situations. I really don't know how to comfort my friend. I didn't know what I should say to him. How ever much I empathise, I can never wholely know how it feels to be him at that moment. I could only just be there for him.

With this recent event, I have concluded that it has now come down to this; the year 2011 marks the end of my teen-hood. Not just the number of my age quite literally but the fact that I know have choices and sacrifices to make. All these things wouldn't be possible without a little of growing up and the freedom which I long for. I have finally come out of my shell, and I see who I am quite clearly now. I have always been a obsessive person when it comes to planning but I have now learned to live in the moment and whatever that we plan may never work out, but it might not ruin the event. In fact, it might just provide a twist.

So the lesson to be learned; just let go of the past, believe in the Higher Power, believe everything happens for a reason, there are no such things as coincidences, life is never going to be fair to you, never give up, be realistic, be humble, empathise, be open minded, listen, learn to wait, learn to love, enjoy life, act on rational impulse and well just grow up. That's all you need